~Beware

10.27.2O13 <3

I'm so stupid. Theres this guy that I like, A lot. But he's a player. What makes me think that he wouldn't cheat on me if we were to be together, if he would cheat on his girlfriend? I'm such an idiot. But I don't want to lose him. He's just, amazing. But it's whatever. My life feels as if it is slowly falling to pieces. I'm done with relationships, I'm done trying. No matter what, I'll never be good enough for any of it. People think I have it all together, because I'm so energetic at school, and happy. I smile and laugh a lot. But I DON'T have it all together. I get sad, and lonely, and hurt. A lot. I just hate bringing people down with me. I keep it in. And I always will. Tomorrow I have school, that should be fun. I get to go and be around a bunch of judgemental people and get talked about some more. Lots of fun. <3

Goodnight Beautiful People <3 

I'm Out For The Night. 

~Shelby <3 

Saturday Night Lights ~

10.5.2O13 <3 

Just Got Outs Of Da Shower My Nigga's. Lookin So Fresh In My Louie Vatons. Just Kidding Guys. 

I Have No Life. I'm Officially L.A.M.E! (: But Itsk. Brianna & Beckii Are Supposed To Come Over Tonight. My Bitches. <---- Kidding, Again. But They Both Can't. :O Sucks Camel Dick.  Don't Judge. I'm Soo Hungry. Subways My Bitch Tonight. I Just Watched How To Eat Fried Worms. Haven't Seen That Movie In Fo-Evs. Like, Gawd. Anyways, My Legs Are So Soft. I'd Date Myself Tonight. 

No Homo. (It's Always Homo). (; I Think I May Be Bi-Polar. Last Night I Felt Like Dying, And Tonight, I Couldn't Be Happier. It's My Ma's Birthday Today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMACITA (x I Dunno How To Spell It. I'm White. Don't Judge. ;D She's 32 Tonight. 

^Kidding. But She Still Looks Young (: She's 45. AND STILL NO WRINKLES. Take That Obama. 

I Dunno Whats Going On With The Government Shutting Down Or Anything, And I Could Care Less. Now, If My Mom Was Shutting Down From Like, Making Me Food, That'd Be A WHOLE Another Story. Her Food Is Bomb, And I'd Die Without Her Goodies. (Talking About The Food She Makes. Not The Junk In Her Trunk.) I Got The Junk Thats In My Trunk From My Mom, So Technically, Her Junk Is My Junk. Ja Feel? (; Yes, Guys, I Am VERY Weird. It's Not Like That Is Anything New. 

And If It Is New To You, Well; 

GET FUCKING USE TO IT. 

Cause Weird Is My Middle Name. -----> Not Really. Ann Is My Middle Name, Btw. (x 

Anyways, I'm Logging Off My Dear Beautiful People To Go And Get My Subway On. (; 

So, As Always, 

I Love You <3 

Sweet Dreams, 

And DON'T Forget That You're Beautiful My Bb's. <3 

~Shelbylicous (; <3 

& It Keeps Getting Better And Better

10.4.2O13. ~

Life, is soo annoying lately. Like, beyond that. Soo, my father, yeah, well he pretty much hates me. I didn't even do anything to make him hate me, yet he does. He blames me for all of his problems and stress. Like, really? I'm not the only living creature who exists. God, he can be so stupid sometimes. And he never listens to anybody else. EVER. And than, I felt a certaint way about somebody, and I got told MUPLTIPLE times that they had felt the same back.. Yeah, Well THEY DIDN'T! And here I was, FOR A WEEK, thinking that the person had felt the same and hoping that maybe I wouldn't be stupid this time and mess everything up. Oh wait, I WAS STUPID for even starting to feel that way.. AGAIN IN THE FIRST PLACE. God, I even told him how I felt, he saw the message and ignored me. Haven't talked to him since. I feel stupid and soo embarrassed. And than, to think that I wouldn't see him at all after today, he shows up out. Like, I didn't even see him today at all. God, I am SUCH an idiot. I'm done listening to people from now on. I'm done with relationships, and I'm done with this "I'll be nice to everybody" thing that I have been TRYING TO DO lately. People piss me off and I'm done letting everybody STEP ALL OVER ME. Done. D-O-N-E Soo Done! This weekends gonna be just great. I get to sit @ home IN MY ROOM ALL BY MYSELF cause I am grounded, and do NOTHING but think of all these stupid complications. I wish I could just be at South already. I want to be around a better surrounding. One that doesn't make me feel like dying everytime I walk by. 

It's official guys; 

...

I'm hopeless. 

~Shelby. 

Come Running Back To Me

10.02.2O13 <3 

What Did I Say? WHAT DID I SAY!? He.Will.Come.Running.Back.To.Me. (:

And Was I Right? Yes, Of Course I Was Right. Because He Realized What He Has Lost. I'm Really Not In The Mood To Have My Emotions Messed With Anymore So I'm Really Not Giving In, Like, At All. 
Relationships Are Stupid. And Yes, Of Course I Have Feelings For This Guy. But It's Going Nowhere Anytime Soon. It's Cool Though. I'm Logging Off And Going To Bed. So Goodnight Beautiful People <3 

I Love You All. 
~Shelby <3 

~Complications~

10.2.2O13 <3 

Why are things so complicated? Either you like me or you don't. Make up your mind. This frustrating ish is going to drive me insane. Lalalalala. Anyways, This whole week has been weird. Like, beyond weird. Things have NOT gone as planned and in better words, I've been being a Pussy Bitch ~Jana (; 

Haha, I feel like one as well. I am never a pussy, about anything. And here I am. Being a little cat. (x 

Get it? (; Yeah, well, I'm starving my ASS off. Oh wait, I HAVE NO ASS CAUSE APPEARANTLY I'M ANOREXIC. Yeaaah, Well, it's raining. And rain makes me happy. <3

So I'm gonna go be happy somewhere else <3 

Later Bby's <3 

~Shelbylicous (; <3